Bidding goodbye!

Hello reader!

Thank you for going through my posts.

Hope you were able to connect atleast to one line that has been written.

Well, didn't write it for readers anyday.

This blog has been extremely special to me.

I shared every small emotion, tweaked a few, exaggerated a lot, wrote a few as heard.
 It has been therapeutic.


A lot of painful, depressing situations have happened ever since I started writing and I have strongly overcome them.
When I found no ear to hear, shoulder to cry, heart to love, my blog had given me all the love by just letting me express with no fear.

But somehow, beginning a new life with new hopes, new aspirations and dreams, don't feel like continuing writing here.

With beliefs which may sound superstitious, will be starting a new blog hoping that everything good will happen now and atleast find all things lost and missed over the years.

Thank you for showering love, encouragement and ideas. 

My best wishes to you for taking your time to read this. Let the best come your way. God bless

Continue reading and encouraging...

Om tat sat

Om tat sat

The end of all endings-The end!!!

On the eve of Valentine's, my soul wants me to close all the chapters of the past. For some chapters are meant to be closed without closure.

Only if I close, can I turn to the next page of a new chapter.

A chapter that's going to be of new hopes, new beginnings, new love, new aspirations and new dreams.

A chapter that's going to make me realize why bad things happen and why we meet good people who turn out to be bad only to us.

A chapter that's going to be a goodbye to you to say a new 'Hello'.

But, before closing wanted to confess that:

There was belief despite the doubts.

There was understanding despite the misunderstanding.

There was love despite the hate poems

There was closeness despite living so far far away.

There was hope in your hopeless rude words

There was trust in the mistrustful friendships and relationships of yours.  Deep down I knew you could never cheat

There was gratitude despite selfishness for wanting you all to myself.

There were memories despite the formatting

There was irreversible, irrecoverable  pain that your actions gave despite me being your only love

There was weakness despite you being my strength

You proved that there was no point in fixing things that were meant to be broken.

There were realizations through your unsaid words.
 
And I loved you truly.

Thank you!

                      The end!!!
                 End of the chapter.
              The end of all the endings.

                              ***

Turn the page for the Next chapter...

Eyes, heart and soul!

"Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes; for those who love with heart and soul there is no separation"
- Rumi

Yes, I believed this.

You said good bye cuz you loved me from your eyes. Loved you from my heart and soul thought we were still not separated.

But, you forcefully kicked me out of your heart to have someone else who spoke your language and belonged to your community.

Anything got by force is not worth having.
You made me believe this.

I gave up.

Pure Bliss 🤗🤩😍❤️

"Do you want Kit-kat?",he asked pointing at the bar of chocolate on his pastry.

She nodded and began sharing it with the others in the table.

He quickly grabbed the chocolate pieces topped on her pastry while she was distributing her share of chocolate. 

"You stole my Ferrero Rocher", she cried.
"Haha, you thought I'm a fool to share my chocolate otherwise?" , he asked taking pride in his manipulation.

She kept cursing him throughout his stay in her City and giving lectures about trust and greed.

" Your cousin is down", called the warden.

She was confused as nobody knew her address

As she walked down, she saw him standing

She ran to him feeling overwhelmed as she knew none in the new city. No family nor relatives. She was all alone.

While everyone had friends, family, boy friends coming over near her hostel gate, she had none.

All she had were glimpses from her window of her hostel mates getting all the love.

She cried for being unable to control from grabbing him.

He gave her a packet asking her to open it.

She was surprised to see a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates in it.

"You called me a thief for taking  half of a chocolate. Here, this is for you", he said.

She had no words. Firstly, for having someone visiting her at the new place. Secondly, for gifting her with her favorite chocolates.

" Is this my Valentine's day gift?", she asked.

" Chee. Noo. I don't believe in that.", he replied.

Although they didn't believe in a particular day to celebrate love, they shared it every single day.

"Time to study", he reminded.

" Love you bro",she said cribbing as she didn't want to let him go.

" Bye bro, love you more than you know",  he said wrooming his bike.

She closed her eyes and thanked God for being fortunate for getting love in a place away from home.
She secretly wished for his happiness forever.

Sometimes it's not about how long we have known someone but it's about how quick we build connection and how good their intentions are.

They were connected.

You can have people whom you've known for ages cursing you secretly at your back and feeling jealous.

You can have people whom you've just met but wishing you great things.

He belonged to the second category.

He had taken over her heart completely to let anyone else inside making her forget everyone in the past.

A 'bro' can replace and give all the love that could be given by a man.

There are different forms of love
Love of God
Love of self
Love of parents
Love of siblings
Love of bro
Love of friends
Love of a partner
Love of children
but all same in the end.

It's all about being unselfish, giving oneself to others unconditionally.

Love is pure bliss 💙❤️

Her bro was her happiness 🤗🤗

Unsaid and unsung...

Feeling
Unloved
Unhugged
Unkissed
Unfelt
Unfortunate
Unappreciated
Unapproved
Unattached
Unaware
Unbearable
Unbelievable
Undesirable
Unfair
Unfamiliar
Unfriended
Unguarded

Since the day we parted.

Written by the girl you overly pampered
Until
She was yours

As she didn't want it unsaid and unsung forever...

Dream catcher 🔮👐💭👩‍💼

Resistance to change
Discomfort to work hard
Unwillingness to move out
Laziness to pack and unpack
Reluctance to unattach

But there was just one DREAM which kept her going against all odds

It motivated her to wake up without an alarm
It taught her to unfriend negativity
It made her stronger than ever
It gave her the courage to say NO

There was just one DREAM that she kept chasing

It kept her conscious
It showed her of the priorities
It pushed her to work harder
It reminded her of the purpose

There was just one DREAM that made her, her own DREAM CATCHER💭👐🔮

She began enjoying every moment of her DREAM catching journey imagining the happiness she would get on fulfilling it✌️

Be your own dream catcher ✌️🔮👐💭

Unaffected!

Even a downpour couldn't drench her as her tears had soaked her enough

Even the wind couldn't blow her away as his breath had blown her mind and heart.

Birthday 🎂🎉👩‍🔬👩‍💼🎁

Happy happy birthday !!
You sang
With double happiness on her birthday
A day that you wait for, every year.
Just to bring a smile on her face
Giving her all your love, time, sleep
Like the way you always keep her happy fulfilling every wish and dream of hers
From temples to hill stations, you've celebrated her birth everywhere.

A 'formal wish' or 'no wish' is what you gave me instead
Despite calling me your girl and her your friend
You were busy making and fulfilling her wishes
Your 'I missed you every second' were only in words
As the whole world saw the reality through your actions

You gave me materialistic gifts the year you wished
which were as materialistic as your love
But your true love was all that I ever wanted
It was too late to wish for though
As you had given yourself and your love to her already

Don't know how useful your other gifts were,
But all I know is that you gave me that one big gift
That I treasure every single day and every milli second
You gifted me 'myself'
Which was
A gift of self- realization
A gift of self-love
A gift of self-reflection

Through your gift,
I got back my lost self
Which was lost in your love
Got back to my senses
With an understanding that you were no different
Realizing that you loved your ego more than me
Got back peace
Peace from the constant chattering of the mind
Which kept dreaming about our future and Finding ways and means to keep you happy.

With the gift that you gave,
Made a pact with myself
To love myself more than anybody else
To never let a man closer to my heart
And to never love you again...

All I'm left with to say is a 'Thank you'
For your gift to me on 'Her birthday'!

Real yet surreal! ?💕💜🤔

It was so real
Everything that I told, shed, gave, showered, flowed
May be something that I had never felt so spontaneous
You were all that I wanted
Nobody could take that place since the night you left
Despite fearless efforts by them
It was just YOU
It scared me to death to have someone else
Who would occupy my heart uninvited
To the place in my heart, so pure
To which I had let just you in
The only man whom I could ever love unconditionally
The love that I gave and the pain that I got back
Has made me strong to say a 'No'
to those trying to creep in or seeking permit
You are irreplaceable and a lesson

We were imperfectly perfect for each other
Being perfectly flawed

The warmth you gave me was surreal

Your confession was so unexpected

Perplexed if it was love ; or
Just means to soothe my grieving heart
Or a strategy to shut my loud cries?

And only you can answer this!
Was it love?
Was it so real as mine?
Wasn't it surreal?

Choices⁉️✔️❌☑️❤️🤗👩‍⚖️👩‍🎓👰🤷

Sometimes, life throws at you billions of blessings
But it is thrown at such a moment that you don't know which to choose and which to leave
Rather a situation when you can choose only one at a time.
I have come across this multiple times earlier
Everytime I chose, I chose with happiness

 I chose with no doubts, no thinking
My goals were always set right
Then, I knew I would get better choices to make
I could get back the same thing again
It could wait ...
But this time, it is a choice between two blessings that matter the most
Letting one go is devastating
Seeing it grow with someone else
Was grabbed the moment I let go
I thought I could catch it back
But everything is too late now
Before I could dream it was shattered

Before I could express it was gone
Gone for good!!
Boom!!! And it's all gone before I could blink.

I've lived and loved my choices
Of course, I can live without those bygone

Earlier it was a choice between right and wrong
Now it is between better and the best

 Present and the future
Future love and future life.

Made the choice already
Not a pleasing one at the moment
But I'm sure, this is what I wanted to live with
Before anything else came into my life
So it should still remain before and above everything at the moment

This is what was destined
May be I was meant to do something else 

May be my life's purpose was something else
A dilemma still persists...
You're my most addictive dilemma

Feeling dumb as words are flowing only in mind
With the fear of the consequences of raising my voice to make you my first choice ,
I write these words which will remain unsaid forever...

Don't trust words, trust actions!

Don't believe when he tells that you make him happy but is scared to introduce you to his friends and family

Don't believe when he asks you sorry for not giving time cuz you saw him having time for everybody else

Don't believe when he tells you he values his family and can't go out with a girl but always goes around with the same girl whom he doesn't consider as a sister

Don't believe when he tells you he has changed but still shows that aggressiveness despite being miles apart

Don't believe when he acts like he trusts you but cross questions you to prove you wrong

Don't believe when he tells you that he's gonna keep you happy when he never made attempts to know what makes you happy

Don't believe when he tells you he is a man of principles and a teetotaler but told you how important it was to be a social drinker

Don't believe when he tells you he can't get back home late but goes out all night with his sister-friend

Don't believe when he tells you he doesn't like to accessorize but wears that fancy bracelet all the time

Don't believe when he tells you I love you when he doesn't have the guts to take it marriage

Don't believe when he tells you he would let you do what you wanted to but doesn't let you apply your favorite lipstick

Don't believe when he tells you he hails from a great family but all he does is criticize and body shame

Don't believe when he tells you're fat or just has make up on for beauty lies in the eye of the beholder and he's just insecure

Don't believe when he boasts about his achievements cuz he would never let you achieve

Don't believe when he wishes you for your exams but all he does is talk about love and lust

Don't believe when he shows off his money cuz you are going to be nothing but his slave

Don't believe when he compliments you once in a blue moon as a formality cuz he always was insecure about how you looked

Don't believe when he tells you he misses you when he made no attempts to contact you

Don't believe when he tells you he has no ego cuz he still believes that woman are supposed to live a certain way

Don't believe when he tells you he's decent and possessive but all he does is getting touchy with other girls in public

Don't believe when he blamed his ex for his break-up, he was just not brave to take it forward

Don't believe when he tells you he feels nothing for her but stalks her on all social media and clicks pictures with her

Don't believe when he tells you he loves you more than her as it was her side which he had taken when she embarrassed you

Don't believe when he tells you he doesn't contact her when you know she was so close to grab his phone and abuse you

Don't believe when he advices you like a saint but all he does is flirting around with girls

Don't believe when he tells he has nothing less and is well settled cuz no independent girl would survive with his narrow mind

Don't believe when you've already caught him lying for he still thinks he can fool you

Don't believe when he does drama to make you trust him all over again

But believe him when he says good bye cuz that's what you should do too to love yourself and be happy

And Believe him when he doesn't fight to stay cuz you deserve something way better than him

And Believe him when he tells you it won't work out cuz it shouldn't work out either

Cuz baby girl, don't believe words but actions ❤️🤗

Exceptionally mine ❤️❤️🤗🤗😘😘😍

In the world of wicked men, opportunists, Romeos, playboys,liars, cheaters, ditchers,
I found you, mistaking you to be either of them.
Just like an oasis in the desert
And an aurora in dark black sky,
You are pure bliss, a savior and an exception to everyone I had ever known.

Your game is with numbers, sections, maxims and all you manage is time, goals, work commitments perfectly instead of feelings and girls.
A blessing to your family and friends.

Although younger than every guy with whom I had crossed paths with, you're the one whom I adore and respect the most and cherish every moment lived.

Beauty not just in your name and face but in your heart is what attracts people towards you.
Cuteness just over flows when you get irritated or jealous.
And that's why I give you more reasons to get annoyed.
Never found anyone who dared take my ferrero rocher by manipulating me with KitKat either.

Never found anyone who has had the same dreams, wishes like mine.
When I found you, I found my dreams and wishes take its re-birth.
We don't just share our dreams and goals but our insecurities too.
An insecurity about people who like us. OMG. We can never fall in love with anyone.
You're the better and the best version of who I want to be.
Dreamer, believer,achiever and my irreplaceable 'bro' for live.

Thank you for bringing back the sparkle in me
To dream big and work hard when I was all lost.
Lost in finding the path towards my goal and my smile.
You brought them all back.
You're probably the only man whom I would listen to at the moment, bow my head to, give up my ego for,
share my dreams and goals with, shout out 'love you' with neither fear nor doubt
Cuz a 'bro' never gives pain and our 'bro-bro' relationship is cleaner than rakhi/bracelet/ring 'bro-sis' relationships,' girl-boy' friendships.
You're my bro- boy for life exceptionally.

Love you bro.🤗😘😍 On your special day, I wish you find all happiness in the world and conquer the world like a boss❤️

Celebrate womanhood 🎉🎉

Be proud to be a woman, a woman who uplifts everybody, especially women. Don't demean any woman. Don't body shame. After all, only a woman can understand women. Don't be ashamed of that extra bulge. Harmonal imbalances, mood swings,extra hair growth are quite natural. Don't worry. Don't pull down those little clothes hung for sun-drying to hide them from others. Don't be embarrassed of those stains. Ignore advices on how much make up is appropriate or which is the right occasion to wear your favourite Red lipstick or Fuschia lipstick.  Dream big and let none come in between you and your dreams. Don't let anyone convince you that the society made responsibilities are more important than your dreams. Don't let anybody decide when you should quit your job. Own your decisions. You are more capable than you know. Rule and live your life like a queen, like a boss- A girl boss.Celebrate womanhood -celebrate being YOU🎉👸💃
Hugs, kisses, love and lots of respect to all the women 😘😍❤️🤗

Passing cloud

Passing clouds are just meant to be looked at but never to feel deep.
You don't have to be attached to every passing cloud.
After all they were never meant to stay
No matter how hard you try.

When you deserve the Sun and the Moon never look at a passing cloud.

Siaaa just read my mind ❤️

https://youtu.be/Jrgbjk45lFA

An inseparable, unbreakable bond

While there is a new bond created around our first half of our quarter century, there are bonds that are created since birth- A bond of a mother and a daughter

No matter how best the new bond partner can be, he's still a quarter century new.

Forever giving love unconditionally without taking care of themselves will always be by our side.

The only person who will accept all our flaws and imperfections without judging us.

The only person who will trust us and be by our side even if we commit blunders a hundred times

There's always some super power that gets generated when we just lie on their shoulder or lap no matter how many grand children we have.

Yes, this bond is inseparable, unbreakable and the strongest bond gifted to a girl To the bond that can never be undone 🙏

The feeling of going away and living with our new love is a battle between two different kinds of love and two loving people if we were asked to choose.
But we are forced to choose our new love for the remaining part of our lives.

The first quarter of a century of our lives is the best and perhaps the only best time to cherish every single moment with our super wonder woman called Mother.

Hugs to all the loving moms with daughters who send their daughters away with a smile dying deep inside ❤️

Lost smile...🙃

I smiled climbing up the stairs looking at you
All the while I was climbing, you kept guiding me through ;
Cautioning and motivating.
Your motivation made me skip a few steps and reach faster initially
But your cautions and reminders of people who had already taken the route and your appreciation for them made me stop a bit, think and leap slowly ;
Slower than ever before.
Didn't want to go any further
I had never thought of looking back
But the ones who had long gone were only physically gone and not mentally.
Along with it being a task to climb up, there was pressure, a hell lot of pressure to be equal to or better than the ones who had used this path.
I looked back when I didn't want to as the journey wasn't pleasing any more
I had come half way,
The remaining journey constantly reminded me of the struggles of the path that I had taken earlier
I started to feel I had nothing to do up there
It would be another painful spot like the past
There was constant fear throughout our nostalgic journey of warnings and reminders
Wasn't sure if the fear was for your curiosity or for my unwillingness to open up just like you-
A fear of vulnerability.
There's nothing more heart breaking than the fear of being rejected
I had lost my smile with this fear.
Would you leave me all alone mid way if you knew all my flaws and imperfections?
Would you judge me for every wrong step and wrong deed taken in the past ?
I was trying to stay calm in the chaos
But my dear friend for the good of both of us, I have decided to quit
To go back getting down the stairs to the same place where I was all alone by myself;
A place where there was no hope,
A place where I was the queen with my imperfections and flaws,
A place that gave me the liberty to  be the way I wanted to,
A place where I would be appreciated,
A place where I was unanswerable,
And today I decide to quit,
Although I never knew what giving up was even before trying,
To bring back the lost smile on my face.

Beyonce ❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍

https://youtu.be/4S37SGxZSMc

I don't know...

I don't know if I should be thankful for making me survive safe for 24 years or should I feel sorry for not being able to do anything to a little girl although I'm 4 times older than her

I don't know if I should be thankful for having the freedom to wear what I wanted to or should I feel sorry for a girl being eaten even in a frock

I don't know if I should be thankful for being around with men who respect and uplift women or feel sorry that I am not able to punish men who treat women like a flesh to satisfy temporary needs

I don't know if I should be thankful for having all the means to reach out for help even for a small defect in a product or should I feel sorry that there are communities that are helpless even after seeing their families getting killed

I don't know if I should be thankful for having an opportunity to learn different laws or should I feel sorry that there are offenses unimaginable by law makers

I don't know if I should be thankful  that I belong to a country which is rich in it's culture or should I feel sorry that barbaric acts happen in holy places in the same country

I don't know if I should be thankful for being protected from the terrorists by our soldiers in the border or feel sorry for having terror minded men within our country

I don't know if I should be thankful for having equal opportunities like men or should I feel sorry for those women who are dead under the bodies of men

I don't know if I should be thankful for being a women or feel sorry for being a women.