Time to let go

I think it's time for me to go away. Go away so far that you will never ever find me or another me.
I get love from someone else but it has never reached me as your thoughts have made a strong boundary where I'm not able to let anyone else sneak in it.
I wish you could tell the words that he does. I wish you could understand me like he does.
When I used to think your birthday was a festival you didn't even remember my birthday. Everything has changed so quick.
By leaving me all alone you made the words of the haters come true. I'm all alone in the cruel world. You made me all alone. Everyone wants to misuse me. I don't have enough strength to fight back like before. I had the courage then cuz you were always with me. But now I'm handicapped by your loss. I'm scared to talk to new people. Scared to create attachment. Scared to hurt myself again. Hope you're happy seeing me this way.
But don't you worry. I'll not give you that happiness. I'll answer you very soon.