Choices⁉️✔️❌☑️❤️🤗👩‍⚖️👩‍🎓👰🤷

Sometimes, life throws at you billions of blessings
But it is thrown at such a moment that you don't know which to choose and which to leave
Rather a situation when you can choose only one at a time.
I have come across this multiple times earlier
Everytime I chose, I chose with happiness

 I chose with no doubts, no thinking
My goals were always set right
Then, I knew I would get better choices to make
I could get back the same thing again
It could wait ...
But this time, it is a choice between two blessings that matter the most
Letting one go is devastating
Seeing it grow with someone else
Was grabbed the moment I let go
I thought I could catch it back
But everything is too late now
Before I could dream it was shattered

Before I could express it was gone
Gone for good!!
Boom!!! And it's all gone before I could blink.

I've lived and loved my choices
Of course, I can live without those bygone

Earlier it was a choice between right and wrong
Now it is between better and the best

 Present and the future
Future love and future life.

Made the choice already
Not a pleasing one at the moment
But I'm sure, this is what I wanted to live with
Before anything else came into my life
So it should still remain before and above everything at the moment

This is what was destined
May be I was meant to do something else 

May be my life's purpose was something else
A dilemma still persists...
You're my most addictive dilemma

Feeling dumb as words are flowing only in mind
With the fear of the consequences of raising my voice to make you my first choice ,
I write these words which will remain unsaid forever...