Bidding goodbye!

Hello reader!

Thank you for going through my posts.

Hope you were able to connect atleast to one line that has been written.

Well, didn't write it for readers anyday.

This blog has been extremely special to me.

I shared every small emotion, tweaked a few, exaggerated a lot, wrote a few as heard.
 It has been therapeutic.


A lot of painful, depressing situations have happened ever since I started writing and I have strongly overcome them.
When I found no ear to hear, shoulder to cry, heart to love, my blog had given me all the love by just letting me express with no fear.

But somehow, beginning a new life with new hopes, new aspirations and dreams, don't feel like continuing writing here.

With beliefs which may sound superstitious, will be starting a new blog hoping that everything good will happen now and atleast find all things lost and missed over the years.

Thank you for showering love, encouragement and ideas. 

My best wishes to you for taking your time to read this. Let the best come your way. God bless

Continue reading and encouraging...

Om tat sat

Om tat sat

The end of all endings-The end!!!

On the eve of Valentine's, my soul wants me to close all the chapters of the past. For some chapters are meant to be closed without closure.

Only if I close, can I turn to the next page of a new chapter.

A chapter that's going to be of new hopes, new beginnings, new love, new aspirations and new dreams.

A chapter that's going to make me realize why bad things happen and why we meet good people who turn out to be bad only to us.

A chapter that's going to be a goodbye to you to say a new 'Hello'.

But, before closing wanted to confess that:

There was belief despite the doubts.

There was understanding despite the misunderstanding.

There was love despite the hate poems

There was closeness despite living so far far away.

There was hope in your hopeless rude words

There was trust in the mistrustful friendships and relationships of yours.  Deep down I knew you could never cheat

There was gratitude despite selfishness for wanting you all to myself.

There were memories despite the formatting

There was irreversible, irrecoverable  pain that your actions gave despite me being your only love

There was weakness despite you being my strength

You proved that there was no point in fixing things that were meant to be broken.

There were realizations through your unsaid words.
 
And I loved you truly.

Thank you!

                      The end!!!
                 End of the chapter.
              The end of all the endings.

                              ***

Turn the page for the Next chapter...

Eyes, heart and soul!

"Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes; for those who love with heart and soul there is no separation"
- Rumi

Yes, I believed this.

You said good bye cuz you loved me from your eyes. Loved you from my heart and soul thought we were still not separated.

But, you forcefully kicked me out of your heart to have someone else who spoke your language and belonged to your community.

Anything got by force is not worth having.
You made me believe this.

I gave up.

Pure Bliss 🤗🤩😍❤️

"Do you want Kit-kat?",he asked pointing at the bar of chocolate on his pastry.

She nodded and began sharing it with the others in the table.

He quickly grabbed the chocolate pieces topped on her pastry while she was distributing her share of chocolate. 

"You stole my Ferrero Rocher", she cried.
"Haha, you thought I'm a fool to share my chocolate otherwise?" , he asked taking pride in his manipulation.

She kept cursing him throughout his stay in her City and giving lectures about trust and greed.

" Your cousin is down", called the warden.

She was confused as nobody knew her address

As she walked down, she saw him standing

She ran to him feeling overwhelmed as she knew none in the new city. No family nor relatives. She was all alone.

While everyone had friends, family, boy friends coming over near her hostel gate, she had none.

All she had were glimpses from her window of her hostel mates getting all the love.

She cried for being unable to control from grabbing him.

He gave her a packet asking her to open it.

She was surprised to see a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates in it.

"You called me a thief for taking  half of a chocolate. Here, this is for you", he said.

She had no words. Firstly, for having someone visiting her at the new place. Secondly, for gifting her with her favorite chocolates.

" Is this my Valentine's day gift?", she asked.

" Chee. Noo. I don't believe in that.", he replied.

Although they didn't believe in a particular day to celebrate love, they shared it every single day.

"Time to study", he reminded.

" Love you bro",she said cribbing as she didn't want to let him go.

" Bye bro, love you more than you know",  he said wrooming his bike.

She closed her eyes and thanked God for being fortunate for getting love in a place away from home.
She secretly wished for his happiness forever.

Sometimes it's not about how long we have known someone but it's about how quick we build connection and how good their intentions are.

They were connected.

You can have people whom you've known for ages cursing you secretly at your back and feeling jealous.

You can have people whom you've just met but wishing you great things.

He belonged to the second category.

He had taken over her heart completely to let anyone else inside making her forget everyone in the past.

A 'bro' can replace and give all the love that could be given by a man.

There are different forms of love
Love of God
Love of self
Love of parents
Love of siblings
Love of bro
Love of friends
Love of a partner
Love of children
but all same in the end.

It's all about being unselfish, giving oneself to others unconditionally.

Love is pure bliss 💙❤️

Her bro was her happiness 🤗🤗

Unsaid and unsung...

Feeling
Unloved
Unhugged
Unkissed
Unfelt
Unfortunate
Unappreciated
Unapproved
Unattached
Unaware
Unbearable
Unbelievable
Undesirable
Unfair
Unfamiliar
Unfriended
Unguarded

Since the day we parted.

Written by the girl you overly pampered
Until
She was yours

As she didn't want it unsaid and unsung forever...

Dream catcher 🔮👐💭👩‍💼

Resistance to change
Discomfort to work hard
Unwillingness to move out
Laziness to pack and unpack
Reluctance to unattach

But there was just one DREAM which kept her going against all odds

It motivated her to wake up without an alarm
It taught her to unfriend negativity
It made her stronger than ever
It gave her the courage to say NO

There was just one DREAM that she kept chasing

It kept her conscious
It showed her of the priorities
It pushed her to work harder
It reminded her of the purpose

There was just one DREAM that made her, her own DREAM CATCHER💭👐🔮

She began enjoying every moment of her DREAM catching journey imagining the happiness she would get on fulfilling it✌️

Be your own dream catcher ✌️🔮👐💭

Unaffected!

Even a downpour couldn't drench her as her tears had soaked her enough

Even the wind couldn't blow her away as his breath had blown her mind and heart.

Birthday 🎂🎉👩‍🔬👩‍💼🎁

Happy happy birthday !!
You sang
With double happiness on her birthday
A day that you wait for, every year.
Just to bring a smile on her face
Giving her all your love, time, sleep
Like the way you always keep her happy fulfilling every wish and dream of hers
From temples to hill stations, you've celebrated her birth everywhere.

A 'formal wish' or 'no wish' is what you gave me instead
Despite calling me your girl and her your friend
You were busy making and fulfilling her wishes
Your 'I missed you every second' were only in words
As the whole world saw the reality through your actions

You gave me materialistic gifts the year you wished
which were as materialistic as your love
But your true love was all that I ever wanted
It was too late to wish for though
As you had given yourself and your love to her already

Don't know how useful your other gifts were,
But all I know is that you gave me that one big gift
That I treasure every single day and every milli second
You gifted me 'myself'
Which was
A gift of self- realization
A gift of self-love
A gift of self-reflection

Through your gift,
I got back my lost self
Which was lost in your love
Got back to my senses
With an understanding that you were no different
Realizing that you loved your ego more than me
Got back peace
Peace from the constant chattering of the mind
Which kept dreaming about our future and Finding ways and means to keep you happy.

With the gift that you gave,
Made a pact with myself
To love myself more than anybody else
To never let a man closer to my heart
And to never love you again...

All I'm left with to say is a 'Thank you'
For your gift to me on 'Her birthday'!

Real yet surreal! ?💕💜🤔

It was so real
Everything that I told, shed, gave, showered, flowed
May be something that I had never felt so spontaneous
You were all that I wanted
Nobody could take that place since the night you left
Despite fearless efforts by them
It was just YOU
It scared me to death to have someone else
Who would occupy my heart uninvited
To the place in my heart, so pure
To which I had let just you in
The only man whom I could ever love unconditionally
The love that I gave and the pain that I got back
Has made me strong to say a 'No'
to those trying to creep in or seeking permit
You are irreplaceable and a lesson

We were imperfectly perfect for each other
Being perfectly flawed

The warmth you gave me was surreal

Your confession was so unexpected

Perplexed if it was love ; or
Just means to soothe my grieving heart
Or a strategy to shut my loud cries?

And only you can answer this!
Was it love?
Was it so real as mine?
Wasn't it surreal?