Would you still love me???

Would you still love me if you know that you're not my first love?
And if I've told those golden three words to somebody else before?
If I've given that same orange shirt to somebody else before?
Would you still love me like I'm new, brand new?
When I don't dress up the way you like, would you still love me ?
When I don't express my love to you all the time, would you still love me ?
Would you still love me, when I talk to guys whom you don't like?
Would you still love me, even when our friends and families don't like us being together?
Would you still love me when I cannot cook lip smacking food like your mother ?
Would you still love me, when I don't worship the God that you do ?
Would you still love me knowing how fussy I am about garlic?
When I don't follow my schedule and when I'm indisciplined, would you still love me ?
When I choose my career over you at times, will you still love me ?
If our work demands us to stay in different parts of the world, would you still love me and stay loyal to me?
Would you still love me if I showed you all my fears and worries?
Would you still love me if I pour out all my emotions?
Would you still love me when I talk out of my mind ?
Knowing the intensity of my mood swings, would you still love me?
Would you still love me and take up the responsibilities of my family?
Would you still love me seeing my imperfectly shaped body?
Would you still love me, when I wear that bright red lipstick that you don't like ?
Would you still love me if look terrible without make up showing you all my flaws?
Would you still love me if all my hair turned grey even before being parents ?
Would you still love me, when I don't pick your calls or reply you immediately?
Would you still love me, when I give a little more time to my friends than you?
Would you still love me, when I am lost when I'm with my friends and forget to call you?
Would you still love me, keeping aside your unstable, unpredictable thoughts?
Would you still love me even when our goals don't match?
Would you still love me knowing that you can never match the quantum of love that I shower on you?
Would you still love me,even after knowing you can get a better girl than me ?

I know...

Everytime you tell me you don't contact anybody, I know every single emoticon you send her
Everytime you tell me you don't meet anyone, I know how many nights you have spent with her
Everytime you tell me that you miss me, I know that I never crossed your mind when you were with her
Everytime you forgot to wish me on my birthday, I know how you flooded her with wishes and gifts on her birthday
Everytime you say you like the clothes that I chose for you, I know what's on your hand all the time
Everytime you say we looked good in pictures, I know who is in your heart's frame and on your profile pictures all the time
Everytime you called her your sister, I know how a brother-sister relationship should've been
Everytime you talk about her, I know how your eyes sparkle
Everytime you ignored my calls, I know who is on your frequently contacted list
Everytime you boasted about your ego to me, I know how you went behind her to convince her to talk to you
Everytime you said she was the one with you in your hard times, I know the compromises I made for you and the people I left for you
Everytime I asked to order food for us, I know how you remembered all her favorite dishes
Everytime she asked me not to talk to you acting like she owned you, I know how shattered I was
Everytime you showered her with extra love, only I know that I can never love anybody more...

THOUGHTS TOLD, WORDS UNTOLD :BEING FEARLESS

“No, I don’t have the talent.” , “What if my idea is rejected ?” , “Will I be laughed at for taking the road less traveled ?” , “Should I try it when there are already people doing it ?”, “ What if there is no market for the career that I want to choose ?”, “Do I have the right degree to pursue my dream ?”, “ Will I be able to finance my project ?”,  “Am I too old to do it ?”, “Nothing has ever gone right, will this one click?”

Have these thoughts crept in the back of your mind when you wanted to do something that you truly loved? Have you feared doing something that you dreamt ages ago?

Fear, some might say, is necessary, it stops us from doing something stupid like falling in the river which has whirlpool or jumping from a mountain without aids. But most of the fears that we generally have are unnecessary, baseless, they simply hold us back from achieving something.

There is always a chance that something bad can happen, Everyone in the world has varying degrees of potentially bad things that can happen to them. Yet, some people don’t spend their days full of anxiety.

Because they just don’t think about it.

But here’s the thing: having the fear is natural. Letting it stop you from going after your dreams is a tragedy. Fear is a terrible thing if you let it control you.

How To overcome the fear that is stopping you from achieving your goals and dreams ?

Here are a few tips that could help :

1. Start small and reach your bigger goal by achieving smaller goals

2. Write down your fears and address them one by one

3. Remember nothing worthwhile comes easy. Stay strong

4. Stay away from negative thoughts and negative people

5. Lead from within by staying motivated

6. Have faith in You-the Powerful You

7. People will judge you no matter what you choose to do

8. Don’t expect to be a perfectionist in the very beginning. Improvise in the due course

9. Challenge all kinds of negative self-talk that happens within yourself

10. Let go things that doesn’t help you reach your goal

There are hidden treasures within you. Don’t let them vanish because of fear. You don’t need anybody’s permission to do things that you love. People love their opinion and so should you love your decision. Results of your work is not something that you should worry about much before starting it. Just do it when you love it with all your heart and put your best effort by staying focussed and things will eventually fall in place.

 It is difficult undoubtedly, if it was easy everybody else would’ve done it. Instead of thinking- ‘Why now?’, think ‘Why not?’. Don’t quit before trying. Most things have been done already.But they have not been done by You. So it is okay to repeat. You need not be the creator always.

You know things. You will learn things that you don’t know over the course of time. Stop complaining and giving excuses as to why you cannot achieve something.

Remember your soul is waiting for you to achieve your dreams.  

Don’t fear!Don’t give up on things you really want to do.

Never let your fear decide your future because quite often fear kills more dreams than failure ever will.

He doesn't miss you anymore girl!

She moved on and I feel sorry for you
Because she thought you were the most amazing guy ever.
If she had a choice any day she would've picked you over all the men in the world.
Now you're another part of her past where she doesn't even remember the names of her ex. She will forget your name and existence too very soon.
Someday she will find the man of her dreams, a man who deserves her and will give her all the happiness in the world.

PS: Inspired by the post that I found some where. Haven't written it on my own completely. It's not my own work.

Time to let go

I think it's time for me to go away. Go away so far that you will never ever find me or another me.
I get love from someone else but it has never reached me as your thoughts have made a strong boundary where I'm not able to let anyone else sneak in it.
I wish you could tell the words that he does. I wish you could understand me like he does.
When I used to think your birthday was a festival you didn't even remember my birthday. Everything has changed so quick.
By leaving me all alone you made the words of the haters come true. I'm all alone in the cruel world. You made me all alone. Everyone wants to misuse me. I don't have enough strength to fight back like before. I had the courage then cuz you were always with me. But now I'm handicapped by your loss. I'm scared to talk to new people. Scared to create attachment. Scared to hurt myself again. Hope you're happy seeing me this way.
But don't you worry. I'll not give you that happiness. I'll answer you very soon.

Unreachable star 🌟

You seem to be a star that I can only admire and dream about but never reach.
Your actions gave me hope but not your words.
Just the way the rain has made the stars disappear, your words have made my hopes disappear too..
You will join another star someday and be one among the other stars unidentifiable while I had dreamt of joining you and creating a legacy.
Anyway, hope you shine bright and twinkle brighter than ever before.

Hoping for a miracle

I'm still waiting, hoping, dreaming, loving, thinking, imagining, living for a miracle to happen. A miracle that could bring us back together and end my sleepless lonely nights without you.
Waiting to join you.

Meaningless apologies

Hi! Hope you're doing good.
I even hope you found a girl who fits into your family and mood.
May be we could have ended it in a more respectful way
Neither of us can change it now anyway
My memory takes me back to those good old days when you were mine
I miss your little stubble
I miss the last hug of that spring night when we were flying in a bubble
Now all that I've is your sorry that doesn't comfort me anymore
I don't need your meaningless apologies anymore.
Good bye

Selenator forever! 💓

https://youtu.be/R38q_C4NApE

THE POWER OF ‘NO’!

 

Had you ever agreed to pick some things for your neighbour forgetting your other appointments and then had to cancel your personal commitments to keep up your promise? Had you taken up a course just because your friends or parents forced you ?  Had you agreed to take up a job right after graduating just because rejecting the offer wouldn't be good for a fresher? Did you take up that extra pile of work to please your manager when you already have a hell lot of deadlines to meet? Had you got into a relationship merely to not hurt the other person or just because the other person loves you way too much?  Did you tolerate the inappropriate moves made by the guy standing behind you in the crowded bus? 

If your answer to either of these is 'YES', then I'm sure you would've experienced deep regret.
A lot of times we choose humility and say ‘YES’ when we should be choosing courage to say ‘NO’.

Nothing is worth more than the respect you have for yourself. If until you learn how to confidently say ‘NO’ to so many things, you shall always say ‘YES’ to so many things. The real summary of a regretful life is a life that failed to balance ‘YES’ and ‘NO’.   

Here are a few situations for which you can give a thought about:

•  Say ‘‘NO’’ to everything that doesn’t lead you to your goal

You will have a lot of distractions, opportunities coming your way while you are on your dream journey. Say ‘‘NO’’ to all those which doesn’t help you achieve your goal.

•   When you say “YES”  to others make sure you are not saying ‘‘NO’’ to yourself

Give yourself permission to say ‘‘NO’’ without feeling guilty, mean, or selfish. Anybody who gets upset and expects you to say YES all the time clearly doesn’t have your best interest at heart. Always remember: You have the right to say ‘‘NO’’ without having to explain yourself. Be at peace with your decisions.

•  Say ‘‘NO’’ to certain jobs

Yes, you’ve got into one of the best companies, but your role there isn’t what exactly what interests you. Would the company name on your tag give you happiness or the job that you do everyday? You’ve a high paying job, a job that is a dream to many, but it requires you to compromise on your dreams, goals, family etc. You always have the liberty to say ‘‘NO’’ when you don’t fit rather when the job doesn’t fit in you.

•  Say ‘‘NO’’ when you can’t

There’s a family get together and your partner wants you to take her out to a movie. Instead of telling a yes and postponing the drama, give a clarity by saying ‘‘NO’’ and face it that moment. When you are sure you cannot do something, be clear and let the other person know.

• Say ‘‘NO’’ to the social media race

So what if your friends travel the world and post pictures all over? So what if someone owns the most expensive phone? So what if someone has lost 50 kilos and is dressed in the trendiest outfit? So what if you’re not active on the social media and don’t have the trending apps? You don’t have to look cool to your friends or the society.  What is cool to them or to the society need not be cool to you. You can travel the world without saying a word. Love truly and still not let people know about it. Not all that appears on the social media reflect a real story. Don’t join the race and forget what you ought to do.

•   Say ‘‘NO’’ to the company of negative people

When you say ‘‘NO’’ to the wrong people, it opens up the space for the right people to come in. When you cannot change them or when it is difficult for you to accept them the way they are you, move out of the company of such people.  It’s easier to get influenced by negativity a lot of times. So try to keep people who will help you grow and believe in your strengths. A lot of who you become is defined by the people you surround with. 

Like Suzette Hinton said, “We must say “NO” to what, in our heart, we don't want. We must say “NO” to doing things out of obligation, thereby cheating those important to us of the purest expression of our love. We must say “NO” to treating ourselves, our health, our needs as important as someone else's. We must say “NO””.  You teach people how to treat you by deciding what you will and won’t accept.

Love yourself enough to set boundaries. Your time and energy are precious.  You get to choose how you use it.  ‘NO’ could be the ultimate kindness. 

THINK ABOUT IT!!!

My irreplaceable lover!!!!?

Like that spring night,
I still yearn to lie on your lap when I feel low,
I still wish to meet your eyes someday,
I still wish to run to you and grab you in my arms and feel the warmth of you,
I still check my spam box everyday to check if you've left any message or if I missed your call.
"Trust me I'll never contact you forever" you said,
I always trust you and your words,  for those are killing me today.
We may not be together now, but I'll love you to infinity and
Trust me too, nobody can ever replace you forever.

Confessions to the man I lost my heart for...

My Dear Prince,

I didn't fall in love with you, the day I met you
It took me about half a decade to realize that you were the one I wanted to lose my heart and soul for
But as you know, I had felt this earlier too,  but for someone else.

Everytime you miss sending a good morning or a good night text, I remember the fight that I used to have with him over the same issue
Everytime I got dresssed with a hell lot of excitement eagerly waiting to see you, I remember his favourite dress
Everytime you said I looked good without makeup, I remember the lipstick that he had gifted me
Everytime I go to a cafe with you, I remember his favourite drink
Everytime I yearned to hold you close, craving for yor hugs, I remember my first hug with him
Everytime I make our future plans of building a family with you, I remember the names that I wanted to address his kids with
Everytime I write a love poem for you, I remember my first break up poem on him
Everytime I say this is not my first love, I fall in love with you a lot more for never questioning me about my past
Everytime I say I love you, I mean it to bits, and when I say it this time, I only think of you because  you've made me give you the purest version of me by loving me, for just the way I'm.

Age is just a number-Passion is Eternal!!

“You’re just 16! Kids should be like kids. Don’t interfere in all these. You wanted a seat in this college, I’ve got it for you. Whether we paid lakhs or crores , ethical or unethical is none of your business. Don’t act like Gandhi.  Attend classes and get us good  marks that is enough”, his parents told.

“You’re 23!! You’re a girl, you should get married soon. I had 2 kids in your age. Look at your cousin, she is 22 and she already has a baby. What are you still studying at this age?? What will you do studying so much?”, her relatives told.

“ You’re 25?? A Post-Graduate? Still don’t have a job? You’re unemployed from the past 2 years ? My daughter was offered a job before she could even complete her graduation. She was just 20.”,her neighbors told. 

“You’re 32!! How can you even dream of dancing now? It may be your passion, but your moves won’t be graceful like the others. Don’t tell me that you’re planning to join your daughter’s dance class. If yes, please take it out of your head immediately”, her friends told.

“You’re already 40, you will not find a girl now!! You might have everything, but girls look for young men. Even if you find a girl, it will not be her first marriage”, his aunt told. 

“ You’re 50!! You’re a diabetic and also have high blood pressure, what business do you want to do at this age? Start a pharmacy so that you can use those medicines for all your ailments. Business it seems!”, his son told. 

“You’re 65 ajji!! How will you manage driving at this age? They will laugh at you when you go for a DL test. Don’t humiliate us by doing that. We will arrange for a driver for you. There is no need for you to learn driving at this age”, her grandchildren told.  

Have people told either of these to you or have you heard people say this?  Age has always been the much talked about hindrance, no matter at what stage of life we are in. It has been something that people have been reminding us constantly whenever we decide to do something that we love. Being practical doesn’t mean we should be negative about things. There are exceptions always. 

From childhood, we were taught how age played an important role in our lives.  We were asked to eat on our own because we were getting older and we were supposed to learn to do things on our own. Those nights didn’t miss stories of kings and queens. Their luxurious lives, valor, bravery etc etc. were supposed to be something that we were asked idolize.Having those stories imbibed in us, we grew up. We started questioning societal issues. But we were not always given convincing answers. We were always asked to mind our business. It was only ‘elder people’ thing to talk about money. Although we had corruption, dowry and other social issues in our text books, we were never allowed to question those within our families. “Kids should be like kids. Good children don’t interfere in elders’ discussions ” were all that we were told.

Even before girls could reach their twenties, the hot topic of ‘marriage’ is discussed with them everywhere. Instead of asking, what course she wants to do or what interests her, people ask her what kind of husband she wants. But nobody understands that marriage will add all those big set of responsibilities to her which in a lot of cases will kill all her dreams.

Whether our parents have a problem accommodating us or not, everyone around make us feel that they are the ones taking care of us, giving all that extra gyan on how important it is to have a job, a good paying job, in the best company and how not to burden our parents after reaching mid twenties. If they have a child, earning well, then you can guess how worse the conversations could be with all the bitti referrals and advice . 

There would be a lot of unaccomplished, unfulfilled desires of ours like singing, dancing, emceeing , playing a sport, writing a book etc., which when got a chance, we would die to do it, forgetting our age. All we know is we enjoy doing it, and we don’t care how good we would be doing it. “What was the necessary for her to do all this at this age? Whom does she want to please by doing all this ?”, would be the discussions behind our backs.

So, we are successful at our job or business, we have every basic thing that comes under the tag ‘luxury’ but we don’t have a partner to share it with. May be we never had the time to think about love or a companion, or we had our goals and dreams to accomplish and fulfill, or we were not prepared, so we are not married yet in our late thirties. And just that could be the reason and nothing else. Instead of helping us find a match who could fit in our lives, we are told that we are too old and the chances for us to get married is too little. In the 7.4 billion people, there is not a single soul to marry us. Huh !!

After all the working under our bosses for most of our lives, we would have definitely gained some experience in life in that area. We have handled our boss, our partner  and their unrealistic expectations and mood swings, so we should be able to manage a small business. A business that we dreamt of from the time we received our first salary, the day we realized being employed is not our type, the moment our boss rated us the least during our appraisal to show us that he could be a better politician. We just have a few more years of service and we felt it is time to call it quit, we are reminded by our old friends who are older than us and children how old we are to start a business. May be we ourselves would remember our age only on the day they sang the ‘Happy birthday’ song. 

When we look or think of anyone in their fifties or sixties, we create a stereotypical version of an inefficient old person. This is unfair.

When we were taught to idolize heroes, then age shouldn’t be something to be pondered over. When you know it is right, go ahead.

Ram Jethmalani received his LLB when he was just 17 years old, but the degree did not entitle him to practice law. This was because to represent a person in court as their lawyer requires a minimum age of 21. But,Ram appealed to the legal system and after giving it due consideration, he was appointed as a practicing lawyer at the age of 18.He didn’t worry about how young he was to go to make an appeal. 

Subra Saxena(Topper 2009) cleared her UPSC Civil Service Exam when she was 30, it being her last attempt(age limit then being 30). 

Henry Ford, Sam Walton became successful in their forties.

Dhruv Shringi of Yatra.com fame had the courage to leave his white collar job to persue his dream.

Millard Kaufman wrote his first novel at age 90. 

We all know a lot of amazing couple who have got married late yet living happy with a great bonding. 

They didn’t assign an age limit to their dreams and neither should you. Age really is just a number marked by a twelve month calendar that checks the years. Unfortunately, we are defined by that number because of our preconceived ideas of what that number “should” look like.  So the next time you’re doing something that might not seem “age appropriate,” remember, acting your “real” age is not always appropriate either. 

Your chronological age isn’t necessarily your “real” age. It all depends on how well you feel and act. While physical health has a lot to do with age,  so does your attitude. It’s all in the mind. 

Don’t let your birthday be a reminder of how another year passed and how your loftiest aspirations have faded farther into the distance.

The saddest words are “it might have been,” the next saddest have to be “I should have tried.” Trying is in itself a form of succeeding. Succeed by valuing yourself and go for it!

You can’t help getting older, but you don’t have to get old!! Be the next irreplaceable ‘You’!