Choices⁉️✔️❌☑️❤️🤗👩‍⚖️👩‍🎓👰🤷

Sometimes, life throws at you billions of blessings
But it is thrown at such a moment that you don't know which to choose and which to leave
Rather a situation when you can choose only one at a time.
I have come across this multiple times earlier
Everytime I chose, I chose with happiness

 I chose with no doubts, no thinking
My goals were always set right
Then, I knew I would get better choices to make
I could get back the same thing again
It could wait ...
But this time, it is a choice between two blessings that matter the most
Letting one go is devastating
Seeing it grow with someone else
Was grabbed the moment I let go
I thought I could catch it back
But everything is too late now
Before I could dream it was shattered

Before I could express it was gone
Gone for good!!
Boom!!! And it's all gone before I could blink.

I've lived and loved my choices
Of course, I can live without those bygone

Earlier it was a choice between right and wrong
Now it is between better and the best

 Present and the future
Future love and future life.

Made the choice already
Not a pleasing one at the moment
But I'm sure, this is what I wanted to live with
Before anything else came into my life
So it should still remain before and above everything at the moment

This is what was destined
May be I was meant to do something else 

May be my life's purpose was something else
A dilemma still persists...
You're my most addictive dilemma

Feeling dumb as words are flowing only in mind
With the fear of the consequences of raising my voice to make you my first choice ,
I write these words which will remain unsaid forever...

Don't trust words, trust actions!

Don't believe when he tells that you make him happy but is scared to introduce you to his friends and family

Don't believe when he asks you sorry for not giving time cuz you saw him having time for everybody else

Don't believe when he tells you he values his family and can't go out with a girl but always goes around with the same girl whom he doesn't consider as a sister

Don't believe when he tells you he has changed but still shows that aggressiveness despite being miles apart

Don't believe when he acts like he trusts you but cross questions you to prove you wrong

Don't believe when he tells you that he's gonna keep you happy when he never made attempts to know what makes you happy

Don't believe when he tells you he is a man of principles and a teetotaler but told you how important it was to be a social drinker

Don't believe when he tells you he can't get back home late but goes out all night with his sister-friend

Don't believe when he tells you he doesn't like to accessorize but wears that fancy bracelet all the time

Don't believe when he tells you I love you when he doesn't have the guts to take it marriage

Don't believe when he tells you he would let you do what you wanted to but doesn't let you apply your favorite lipstick

Don't believe when he tells you he hails from a great family but all he does is criticize and body shame

Don't believe when he tells you're fat or just has make up on for beauty lies in the eye of the beholder and he's just insecure

Don't believe when he boasts about his achievements cuz he would never let you achieve

Don't believe when he wishes you for your exams but all he does is talk about love and lust

Don't believe when he shows off his money cuz you are going to be nothing but his slave

Don't believe when he compliments you once in a blue moon as a formality cuz he always was insecure about how you looked

Don't believe when he tells you he misses you when he made no attempts to contact you

Don't believe when he tells you he has no ego cuz he still believes that woman are supposed to live a certain way

Don't believe when he tells you he's decent and possessive but all he does is getting touchy with other girls in public

Don't believe when he blamed his ex for his break-up, he was just not brave to take it forward

Don't believe when he tells you he feels nothing for her but stalks her on all social media and clicks pictures with her

Don't believe when he tells you he loves you more than her as it was her side which he had taken when she embarrassed you

Don't believe when he tells you he doesn't contact her when you know she was so close to grab his phone and abuse you

Don't believe when he advices you like a saint but all he does is flirting around with girls

Don't believe when he tells he has nothing less and is well settled cuz no independent girl would survive with his narrow mind

Don't believe when you've already caught him lying for he still thinks he can fool you

Don't believe when he does drama to make you trust him all over again

But believe him when he says good bye cuz that's what you should do too to love yourself and be happy

And Believe him when he doesn't fight to stay cuz you deserve something way better than him

And Believe him when he tells you it won't work out cuz it shouldn't work out either

Cuz baby girl, don't believe words but actions ❤️🤗

Exceptionally mine ❤️❤️🤗🤗😘😘😍

In the world of wicked men, opportunists, Romeos, playboys,liars, cheaters, ditchers,
I found you, mistaking you to be either of them.
Just like an oasis in the desert
And an aurora in dark black sky,
You are pure bliss, a savior and an exception to everyone I had ever known.

Your game is with numbers, sections, maxims and all you manage is time, goals, work commitments perfectly instead of feelings and girls.
A blessing to your family and friends.

Although younger than every guy with whom I had crossed paths with, you're the one whom I adore and respect the most and cherish every moment lived.

Beauty not just in your name and face but in your heart is what attracts people towards you.
Cuteness just over flows when you get irritated or jealous.
And that's why I give you more reasons to get annoyed.
Never found anyone who dared take my ferrero rocher by manipulating me with KitKat either.

Never found anyone who has had the same dreams, wishes like mine.
When I found you, I found my dreams and wishes take its re-birth.
We don't just share our dreams and goals but our insecurities too.
An insecurity about people who like us. OMG. We can never fall in love with anyone.
You're the better and the best version of who I want to be.
Dreamer, believer,achiever and my irreplaceable 'bro' for live.

Thank you for bringing back the sparkle in me
To dream big and work hard when I was all lost.
Lost in finding the path towards my goal and my smile.
You brought them all back.
You're probably the only man whom I would listen to at the moment, bow my head to, give up my ego for,
share my dreams and goals with, shout out 'love you' with neither fear nor doubt
Cuz a 'bro' never gives pain and our 'bro-bro' relationship is cleaner than rakhi/bracelet/ring 'bro-sis' relationships,' girl-boy' friendships.
You're my bro- boy for life exceptionally.

Love you bro.🤗😘😍 On your special day, I wish you find all happiness in the world and conquer the world like a boss❤️

Celebrate womanhood 🎉🎉

Be proud to be a woman, a woman who uplifts everybody, especially women. Don't demean any woman. Don't body shame. After all, only a woman can understand women. Don't be ashamed of that extra bulge. Harmonal imbalances, mood swings,extra hair growth are quite natural. Don't worry. Don't pull down those little clothes hung for sun-drying to hide them from others. Don't be embarrassed of those stains. Ignore advices on how much make up is appropriate or which is the right occasion to wear your favourite Red lipstick or Fuschia lipstick.  Dream big and let none come in between you and your dreams. Don't let anyone convince you that the society made responsibilities are more important than your dreams. Don't let anybody decide when you should quit your job. Own your decisions. You are more capable than you know. Rule and live your life like a queen, like a boss- A girl boss.Celebrate womanhood -celebrate being YOU🎉👸💃
Hugs, kisses, love and lots of respect to all the women 😘😍❤️🤗

Passing cloud

Passing clouds are just meant to be looked at but never to feel deep.
You don't have to be attached to every passing cloud.
After all they were never meant to stay
No matter how hard you try.

When you deserve the Sun and the Moon never look at a passing cloud.

Siaaa just read my mind ❤️

https://youtu.be/Jrgbjk45lFA

An inseparable, unbreakable bond

While there is a new bond created around our first half of our quarter century, there are bonds that are created since birth- A bond of a mother and a daughter

No matter how best the new bond partner can be, he's still a quarter century new.

Forever giving love unconditionally without taking care of themselves will always be by our side.

The only person who will accept all our flaws and imperfections without judging us.

The only person who will trust us and be by our side even if we commit blunders a hundred times

There's always some super power that gets generated when we just lie on their shoulder or lap no matter how many grand children we have.

Yes, this bond is inseparable, unbreakable and the strongest bond gifted to a girl To the bond that can never be undone 🙏

The feeling of going away and living with our new love is a battle between two different kinds of love and two loving people if we were asked to choose.
But we are forced to choose our new love for the remaining part of our lives.

The first quarter of a century of our lives is the best and perhaps the only best time to cherish every single moment with our super wonder woman called Mother.

Hugs to all the loving moms with daughters who send their daughters away with a smile dying deep inside ❤️

Lost smile...🙃

I smiled climbing up the stairs looking at you
All the while I was climbing, you kept guiding me through ;
Cautioning and motivating.
Your motivation made me skip a few steps and reach faster initially
But your cautions and reminders of people who had already taken the route and your appreciation for them made me stop a bit, think and leap slowly ;
Slower than ever before.
Didn't want to go any further
I had never thought of looking back
But the ones who had long gone were only physically gone and not mentally.
Along with it being a task to climb up, there was pressure, a hell lot of pressure to be equal to or better than the ones who had used this path.
I looked back when I didn't want to as the journey wasn't pleasing any more
I had come half way,
The remaining journey constantly reminded me of the struggles of the path that I had taken earlier
I started to feel I had nothing to do up there
It would be another painful spot like the past
There was constant fear throughout our nostalgic journey of warnings and reminders
Wasn't sure if the fear was for your curiosity or for my unwillingness to open up just like you-
A fear of vulnerability.
There's nothing more heart breaking than the fear of being rejected
I had lost my smile with this fear.
Would you leave me all alone mid way if you knew all my flaws and imperfections?
Would you judge me for every wrong step and wrong deed taken in the past ?
I was trying to stay calm in the chaos
But my dear friend for the good of both of us, I have decided to quit
To go back getting down the stairs to the same place where I was all alone by myself;
A place where there was no hope,
A place where I was the queen with my imperfections and flaws,
A place that gave me the liberty to  be the way I wanted to,
A place where I would be appreciated,
A place where I was unanswerable,
And today I decide to quit,
Although I never knew what giving up was even before trying,
To bring back the lost smile on my face.

Beyonce ❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍

https://youtu.be/4S37SGxZSMc

I don't know...

I don't know if I should be thankful for making me survive safe for 24 years or should I feel sorry for not being able to do anything to a little girl although I'm 4 times older than her

I don't know if I should be thankful for having the freedom to wear what I wanted to or should I feel sorry for a girl being eaten even in a frock

I don't know if I should be thankful for being around with men who respect and uplift women or feel sorry that I am not able to punish men who treat women like a flesh to satisfy temporary needs

I don't know if I should be thankful for having all the means to reach out for help even for a small defect in a product or should I feel sorry that there are communities that are helpless even after seeing their families getting killed

I don't know if I should be thankful for having an opportunity to learn different laws or should I feel sorry that there are offenses unimaginable by law makers

I don't know if I should be thankful  that I belong to a country which is rich in it's culture or should I feel sorry that barbaric acts happen in holy places in the same country

I don't know if I should be thankful for being protected from the terrorists by our soldiers in the border or feel sorry for having terror minded men within our country

I don't know if I should be thankful for having equal opportunities like men or should I feel sorry for those women who are dead under the bodies of men

I don't know if I should be thankful for being a women or feel sorry for being a women.

A letter that scares me...

"I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday.
These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you.
I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore.
When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this.
I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you.
So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly.
No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car.
Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me.
I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something.
The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives.
All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you.
I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this.”

 Jiah's letter to Suraj Pancholi


I don't know if it was really written by Jiah, but I could sense deep pain and I empathise through the words which went unsaid when she was alive. Reading this makes me wonder, if love is really worth our life and career. It fears me to even think of  getting attached to somebody. I think of the trauma that she must have undergone although I've never met her. I feel our souls are connected.After all only a woman can understand woman. My prayers and deepest condolences to this beautiful soul who left India shocked years back. Hope you get justice atleast after your death.


Reference:
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http://www.dnaindia.com/entertainment/report-full-text-of-jiah-khan-s-letter-i-aborted-our-baby-when-it-hurt-me-deeply-1846027

Note:
I am not trying to support any party. I do not know the authenticity of the facts given.  I have used it because it has deeply moved me.